As If
by T'shandra
I am living as if...
As if I cared
As if I dared
As if the emptiness was full
As if my fears were gone
As if the connections were there
As if I was wasn't lost
As if the pain was gone
As if I knew how to do it
As if it was easy
As if I knew the way
As if I deserved what others have
As if I was not sad
As if I was not mad
As if I truly was glad.
Maybe some day I can live
And feel and be and know
But for today I will live as if.
