Dark Longings of a Sad RAD
by Kathryn Taylor
I secretly long for what no one deserves-
Deep in my heart I believe
Is a seed from the past I cannot recall,
Which propels me toward this dark fate-
If only it'd happen and take me by storm,
I sense somehow I'd be free
From what it is I think I deserve-
Yet, I know in my head it's deceiving me,
For it can only make matters much worse,
To harden my heart for all time,
A place from which I'd never return
And my past would never unwind-
How do I stop wishing, to never desire,
To elude the fate I call upon myself-
I will run away 'til I find the key
Which unlocks the source,
that wipes warm tears away from my face,
And showers upon me God's wisdom and love-
