Love of My Life
by Chrissy
We had an amazing break through last week, after both of my children attended their Neurofeedback and Attachment Therapy session. As we were driving home (we drive approximately 45 minutes each way), my husband had one of his favorite Sammy Kershaw CD's playing. The CD played through twice on the drive home. On the last song, on its second play, my 5 year old who is developmentally around 2 years old, motioned with his hand that he wanted the music turned up. My son is primarily non-verbal, although he tries really hard, and does utilize sign language. The title of the song was "You are the love of my life." Now, this song has always struck me as being a love song about a "Man and Woman" relationship. However, as we listened to the words, and thought of our son, both my husband and I began getting teary eyed. At the end, my son said, "Mom Kiss?" At that, I started to let the tears go, and leaned over and gave him a kiss. It was amazing!
The next day, we pulled the CD out of the van and brought it into the house. Then we played it again just to see if he did the same thing. He stopped dead in his tracks when the song started, and wanted to be held by both of us. I don't know all of the words to this song, but it starts out,"You are the love of my life, you are the reason I'm alive."
It is moments like these that keep us going. This child has struggled so much, and continues to struggle. Now we are experiencing trouble with his school, as they are unable to physically manage him when he gets out of control. He is trying to adjust to new medications, and the "theraputic dose" still has not been established. And during all of this, my daughter (who has plenty of her own attachment issues), tries desperately to compromise his efforts and weaken us with constant meaningless chatter. Yet, we are truly blessed, as we have survived a very difficult anniversary with her without any severe behaviors or traumatic incidents. And for that I am so incredibly grateful.
I am grateful for the prayers of others, for the awesome professionals involved, and for the support of my husband, friends, and family. No matter how difficult things may get, I am truly amazed at how each difficult situation is turned around into something positive. I do not doubt for a second that this is the handi-work of God. A special thank you to all who have been supportive on this website, and to Suz for creating it.
