More Progress
January, 2007
Tonight as we were eating dinner, TLP looked up at me and said,
"Every time I take a bite of my food, I see your face... and I still want to keep eating... and I don't even think about throwing it up... or throwing my food in the trash anymore."
Hmmmmmmmmm........ I really had to think about this one for a few minutes before I responded.
He told me that he used to HATE to eat anything that I made for him. Anything that I'd touched with my hands. But, now... even if he knows I've touched it... he can eat it.
He said something about "seeing my face" whenever he eats something now. I'm guessing that he meant that he thinks about me whenever he's eating the food I've prepared for him. Hopefully with a little love in his heart knowing how hard his mommy works to make good things for him to eat.
Might sound kind of strange to some people... but I think I actually understand what he was trying to say, and I think that's just another sign that he is definitely attached to his mommy now. Attached enough to eat the food I've prepared for him without sneaking to toss it into the trashcan... without vomiting it back up... and without arguing.
I just hope that his communication skills improve a little before he meets some sweet young girl and announces to her....
"Hey... I can finally eat something that you've cooked for me without wanting to vomit!"
So... is this SUCCESS... or what?????
Funny... I remember him saying something very similar to this a few months ago too. Something to do with him being able to eat something that I'd touched with my hands... when in the past he didn't want to eat anything I'd put my hands on.
So... I think this means that we're still okay. Still moving forward.
For all of you moms and dads out there who can't get your kids to eat...
maybe TLP has shed a little light on that reason for some of us.
Maybe I should have been wearing rubber gloves all these years and it would have solved all of those eating issues a loooooooooooooooooooong time ago. Or.. maybe the gloves wouldn't have helped at all and he would have just continued to refuse to eat the food that I cooked for him anyway. Maybe accepting food from a mommy that you don't think you want... and don't know if you trust... would still be a hard thing to do with or without gloves.
Anyway... he appears to have given up on helping himself to those FROZEN waffles when I'm not looking... and he's eating Mom's homemade food... and LIKING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm sooooooooooooooooooo happy that we're moving forward again. So happy that I didn't give up on him when the going got REALLY rough again a year ago! So happy to have him over here eating my food without feeling the need to vomit.
I almost gave up on this kid...
I was sooooooooooooooooooo close to walking away from all of this...
and if I would have done that...
I never would have heard all of these truly awesome things that have been coming out of his mouth these past few months.
We've been through soooooooooo much this past year!!!
But the good news is... we survived!!!
Both of us!!!!!
I actually think we're going to make it now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HUGs to all of you awesome parents out there for all that you do.
Hang in there... and someday soon... maybe you'll be hearing some of this really good stuff over at your house too.
