Struggling
Struggling......
Posted on the TLP Message Board by Suz (November 2009)
I don't know what's happening here... but we're really struggling again. : (
Maybe it's just the upcoming holidays...
Music... Baking... and Singing...
Posted on the TLP Message Board by Suz (November 2009)
Yesterday... TLP and I spent the afternoon baking... and listening to music... and singing. We probably even looked NORMAL for a few hours. lol Man... am I ever TIRED!!!! We're both wearing the essential oils this week... trying to take care of ourselves. Last night I sent him out with his dad for a shopping trip so that I could breathe for a short time. I went to bed early (for me) last night... and I'm just trying to take care of ME... so that I can be okay to take care of him.
WHY IS HE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HYPER AND IMPULSIVE RIGHT NOW?????
I think it has everything to do with the holidays, but I don't remember last year being this bad.
I think it has something to do with that testing coming up for him in December. I think he's scared.
I think it has something to do with him getting closer to age 18. I think he's worried about his future.
But I'm just going to concentrate on taking care of myself... knowing that when I'm okay... he's generally okay.
I wish we could just fast-forward life to April or May... sigh
VENTING...
Posted on the TLP Message Board by Suz (November 2009)
If he refers to himself as being "your retarded child" one more time... I'm going to scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My Louisana Sky...
Posted on the TLP Message Board by Suz (November 2009)
TLP and I just finished watching a really good movie. It was called, MY LOUISANA SKY. We were both sitting on the livingroom floor packing vegetable seeds for The Dinner Garden, and watching the movie. I will admit that I cried a few times throughout this movie... and I could see that TLP was fighting back tears a few times too. This is a really good movie for those of you who are raising a child who is developmentally delayed. We found it on Comcast On Demand... and let me tell you... there are a lot of really good life lessons for all of us in that particular movie.
Okay... we are headed outside to get the yard tilled before the really cold whether hits us.
Have a good day everyone...
Reality.........
Posted on the TLP Message Board by Suz (November 2009)
Sooooooooooooooooo... TLP and I had this really good talk tonight about LIFE... and the good progress he's made... and I told him how proud I am of him... etc... etc... and he listened and I felt connected with him... and his mood softened... and he heard me...
and then at bedtime... it was as if somebody flipped a switch... and I was dealing with a toddler again...
I'm soooooooooooooooooo tired!!!
I hate this time of year!!!
I hate this roller coaster!!!
Is there a full moon out there????
Oh man... does anyone have a tree that I can scream at tonight??? I just feel like I want to scream tonight. arrrghhhh!!!!
Maybe I just need some sleep...
Oh Man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! : (
Posted on the TLP Message Board by Suz (November 2009)
I'm throwing my "NO R-rated movies" rule out the window for a little while, and I just ordered the following movies....
Scared Straight - 1987 Prison Documentary
ABC News Primetime Juvenile Corrections - Lost Children Behind Bars
ABC News Nightline - Children Tried as Adults
Doing Time - Life Inside the Big House (1991)
Turned Out - Sexual Assault Behind Bars
Gladiator Days - Anatomy of a Prison Murder (2002)
It's time for a dose of reality over here. We're going to have a HUGE movie and popcorn day for a kid who just said that he would rather live in jail/prison than with us. I've heard this before from him... and he's 17 now... I guess it's time for a good dose of reality about what kind of a future he would have in prison.
I sent an email to his AT to let him know that I just ordered these movies, and that I intend to sit and watch them with him. I'm waiting to hear back... and see if I'm going to get a tongue lashing. lol
It's time... he needs to know the truth about PRISON... so he can see that home would be the better choice.
sigh
I'm sure it's just another phase... but I'm tired... and looking forward to chilling out in front of the TV with him... to eat lots of popcorn.
Am I wrong to do this???????
Would like any and all feedback...
Got AT Approval for Movies....
Posted on the TLP Message Board by Suz (November 2009)
The AT emailed and told me to "Go for it!" He said that he sees no harm in giving TLP some reality, and that he believes that TLP is developmentally able to handle it. He did warn me to make sure that he is not in a dysregulated space when viewing them, and to be prepared for REACTIONS.
I will wait until they get here, and they will become a part of our school program, first thing in the morning when he is rested, clear minded, and hopefully able to process them. I would NEVER have him view something like this at night, since evenings seem to be the hardest for him these days.
Wish us luck.... and I will let you know how this goes for us as we view each individual movie.
Prison/Jail Movies....
Posted on the TLP Message Board by Suz (December 2009)
We watched all five of them in two days. We are both over here DIGESTING what we saw... some of which was very graphic, sexual, and violent.
I'll let you know what comes of it... but I think he needed to watch them. I was careful to pick mornings to watch them, because he is fresher and his mind is in a much better place during the day.
I can SEE and FEEL him attempting to process the information from these movies.
And sooooooooooooo, now we wait... and watch... and see... what he chooses to do with this new information.
