The Homecoming
I just wanted to let everyone know that I love all of you... and miss all of you...
and that I have been learning to stand still... breathe... and enjoy life.
I have also been learning that it was okay for me to put TLP into the residential facility
and take a little time to figure out WHO I AM... and WHERE I NEED TO GO IN LIFE.
WOW!!!!!!
This has been quite a journey... and has been quite painful and enlightening at the same time.
I'm not quite there yet... but I think I'm headed into the right direction now.
I just need to be able to find the right balance so that I can care for TLP...
my husband... my two other children... and also for myself at the same time.
I think I know now that I have spent the last 10 plus years putting my entire heart and soul into saving TLP... and I somehow forgot to TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. I am over here learning to do that now... and trying to pace myself... and breathe... and allow life to happen, as it will.
I know that I'm NOT a saint... that I'm NOT a super mom...
but I AM A MOM THAT LOVES MY CHILDREN AND FAMILY...
and I intend to spend a little more time spreading a bit of that love upon myself too.
We're going to get our son tonight and bring him home... WHERE HE BELONGS.
I'm nervous.... and excited all at the same time...
but I think that if we all work together... we WILL make it.
We may not be everyone's vision of what a perfect family should be...
but we are definitely FAMILY.
We love each other... we're VERY STRONG... and we have one hell of a good support system. I trust them... and I trust myself... and I trust my family...
and I trust that GOD will be watching over all of us
as we continue on with this very long and tiring journey.
For those of you who pray... please continue to pray.
Pray for strength for TLP... for me... and for our entire family.
BUT also continue to pray for your own children and family.
The way I see it... prayer can never be a bad thing...
even for those who are not all that sure that anyone is up there listening.
I love all of you... and I pray that we all can find the strength inside of us
to do whatever it is that needs to be done for our children and families.
I do not believe that there are any right or wrong answers in life...
but I believe that if we listen closely to our heart and soul...
we will eventually find ourselves headed in the right direction.
For me... THE RIGHT DIRECTION is to go get my son and bring him back home.
I would like to again thank all of my very special angels
(and there have certainly been MANY of you flying beside me these past 10 years)...
far too many to name... without maybe forgetting one or two.
BUT.... if you are reading this...
YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHO YOU ARE....
and I LOVE YOU.
