TLP's Time Travel Machine
Time Travel
Posted on the TLP Message Board on July 29, 2004 at 01:02:49 AM by Suzanne
Okay... we're hard at work making that Time Machine over here now. My plan is to set it up as a two-way time travel device, meaning that we can go back in time... AND move ahead into the future. My goal is to start out by taking TLP back to meet his younger self... and working through some of the past abuse issues. I've been putting this off because I'M SCARED. There... I said it!! The thought of watching him relive the abuse scares the heck out of me... but I think that this is something that we need to do now. He trusts me now. I can feel it. And I think that he will be able to go back there... as long as I'm there with him.
But I'm still scared!!!!!!
-Suz
Anyone Around???
Posted on the TLP Message Board on July 30, 2004 at 10:13:01 AM by Suzanne
I can TRY to take a photo when we are finished, but it's not going to be anything fancy... as I am a HORRIBLE artist. We just need it to be functional for us... that's all.
Instead of building it outside as we had originally planned, we are using an upstairs closet space or "Cubby" as we call it. It's about 2 feet wide... 4 1/2 feet long. It has a sloped ceiling inside and TLP can almost stand straight up at the highest point. The "Cubby" has two doors (one on each end.) It is accessed through our upstairs hallway... and the other door leads into my oldest son's bedroom. We have a lock on the door leading to the bedroom... to keep TLP from running into his brothers room.
Yesterday, TLP and I went inside the cubby and put two fresh coats of "gray" paint inside there. We bought one of those cheap little lights that run on batteries ($1.00) and turn on by pushing it. We hung it on the wall with a nail. That gives us a bit of light inside the dark cubby. I may buy another one for the other side later today because it's still VERY dark inside there. Then we took a LARGE bulletin board and painted that gray to match the walls. He drew out the plans on paper and told me how it has to look, and what kind of gadgets we needed to fly it. Then we painted a keyboard with the numbers 0-9 on it... so we can punch in the year that we are going to visit. The we painted a STOP and GO button. We also painted a speedometer... gas gage... and the most important thing of all... a HYPER SPEED control that can make us fly up to 1,000 miles per hour.
Then we painted a "window" to the outside world. TLP painted that part... and what he thought we would see as we flew back through time. Today we will attach the bulletin board to an inside wall of the Cubby, then bolt a steering wheel from our old PlayStation to the wall underneath it. Then we're going to pack a bag with all of the necessary items needed for the trip.
Baby Blanket, Bottle, Juice, Pacifier, Stuffed animal, Baby Pictures (To tack onto the Bulletin Board), etc.
Oh... we're taking the AT's advice and using a roll of wallpaper attached to the wall as a SCROLL... so we can document our journey as we move along. We used a curtain rod and brackets to attach it to the inside wall of the Time Machine.
The rest is still a mystery to me, but I guess we'll just make it up as we move along. I hope to have the Time Machine ready to go by later this afternoon.
I've already talked to TLP about the rules of the Time Machine. He is NOT ALLOWED to EVER go back in time without me with him. He NEEDS me to be with him to help keep him safe while he's visiting. Yet, he can use the Time Machine as a place to go hide out when he feels stressed, or afraid, or when he needs to be alone.
TLP's AT called me yesterday. I talked to him about the Time Machine, and about my worries of making things worse by doing this. His response, "You can't make things worse... because TLP will NOT let you take him somewhere that he doesn't want to go." I think the AT is pretty excited to see how this all plays out, but I'm still kind of scared. Yet, TLP is very EXCITED about this and if he's tough enough to do this Time Travel... I'll need to toughen up a bit more too.
I'll be away from the website today... because we still have some work to do on the Time Machine. It's also my 21st wedding anniversary... so I'm guessing that I'll have to split my time with a couple of guys today. But... I will come back and let you guys know how our first journey goes. If it proves to be successful... maybe I can even build a page here and document our journey to show you how it's going. We shall see!
Have a good day everyone, and a good weekend... just in case we get lost somewhere in time and I don't make it back really soon.
-Suz
Our First Time Travel Experience
Posted on the TLP Message Board on August 5, 2004 at 04:15:34 AM by Suzanne
Well... TLP and I took our first trip back into time last night. He was sooooooooooo excited and I was actually a little frightened. But... he took the lead and he decided where we were going... and he made all the rules... and it was actually quite interesting to watch... and be a part of.
I asked him where we were going as soon as we entered the Time Machine.
He said, "Aug 17, 1992"
I said, "Wow... that's the day before you were born!"
He said, "Yep... you and I are going to watch me being born."
I told him how excited I was that I could be a part of this...
Then his bio-parents enetered the room.
"I'm scared... " I said to him. "Can they see us?"
"Not anymore" he said as he started pushing buttons on his toy cell phone.
"Now we can watch them... and they won't know we are even here."
So we both layed on our stomachs and watched.
"They're going into that room," he said.
"Why are they going in there?," I asked.
"They're having sex!" he said.
"Yikes... I don't think we should be watching that," I said.
"Yeah..." he agreed.
We left that scene... and we both watched in amazement as TLP was being born.
"He's so beautiful," I said. "Just look at him."
TLP smiled as he and I both sat there and rocked baby TLP.
"Just look at those beautiful dark curls," I said as I caressed the make believe baby's face."
"Oh no.... here they come!," he said as if he were frightened.
"What are they doing?"
"They're fighting!," he said. "Get back! Get away from him. You're scaring him!!"
GIVE ME MY BABY!!!!!!!" he screamed as if he were the birth mom.
"She's not going to give him back to you... she's going to keep him!!!!"
"Oh no... can they see us?," I said.
"Yep... and they're VERY mad!!!," he said as he picked up the cell phone and pointed it at them as if he were turning off the TV with a remote control.
"Good... we're invisible again," he said. "They can't hurt us."
"Oh no....," he shrieked.
"What's happening?"
"Look... look... they're leaving the baby alone," he said.
"Oh no.....," I yelled. " Don't leave him home alone... you need to call a babysitter!!!!!!!"
They just left him," he said sadly.
"Where did they go?," I asked.
"They went to work."
"We can't just leave him over there all alone," I said. "He's afraid. We need to go get him."
TLP and I went over and took baby TLP out of the crib. We held him in our laps and soothed him... rocked him... changed his dirty diaper... and fed him a bottle of juice. Somewhere in this time... the REAL TLP slid up into my arms and pulled the bottle of juice into his mouth. We sat there for a very long time as I fed him the REAL orange juice.
Then he sits up and says,"LOOK... she's taking good care of me."
"Who are you talking to,?" I asked.
"My bio-dad."
"Look at the big bump on the baby's head," he said as he rubbed the make believe baby's head. "Look at what you did!!!!!!!!!!!"
I sat and inspected the bump on the baby's head. "What happened... what did he do to the baby?"
"He threw a bowling ball at him!!!!"
" Oh you poor... poor baby," I said as I rocked him. Then I turned and looked up into thin air. "WHY WOULD YOU EVER HURT A SMALL BABY??????????"
"He left," TLP said sadly. "You made him mad."
"Well.... he made me mad too!!!!!" I said angrily. " Parents should NEVER EVER hurt babies.
We both went back to soothing the crying baby when " G*** the Jerk " entered the room.
"It's HIM...... He's here!!!!!!!!"
WHERE IS HE??????" I asked as I started to panic.
"RIGHT THERE!!!!!!!!" TLP said.
Then TLP was lost somewhere in deep thought. "No... he shouldn't be here yet..... I'm too little."
"Go away G***!!!!!!!!!!," I screamed. "LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!"
TLP grabbed his toy cell phone and frantically started pushing buttons. "LOOK......," he said, as he held the cell phone out to G***. "Look what you did."
I became the voice of G***, as I said, "What the HELL are you talking about... I didn't do anything."
" Oh.... yes you did...... LOOK... look at what you're going to do in the future!," TLP screamed.
"You don't know what you're talking about," I screamed back at TLP.
He's coming after us," TLP screamed.
"Make us invisible," I yelled back at him.
TLP quickly pushed the buttons on the cell phone and we disappeared from G***'s view.
He's still here... he's not leaving," TLP said.
"BACK OFF... G***... you can't hurt us," I yelled.
I grabbed a vaccum cleaner attachment and started swinging it. "LEAVE G***.... YOU BETTER GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE IF YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR YOU!"
TLP and I took turns hitting G*** as we told him what a horrible person he was. Then we grabbed the baby... the bottle... and the blanket... and jumped back inside the Time Machine.
"Where are we going," I asked.
"We're taking the baby home... so nobody can hurt him."
Well...... that was our first Time Travel experience.... retold to the best of my ability. For obvious reasons... I cannot post all of our journeys... but I wanted to come tell all of you how the first one played out.
Something tells me that TLP and I will be taking many more Time Travel journeys in the near future.
Something tells me that I will be meeting many horrible people along this journey too. : (
HUG
-Suz
