Dear Kids,
I'm so tired of your crap. People have said to us "we must be saints to have adopted you'"and to tell you the truth I'm beginning to believe them. I never asked for any of this when we went into adoption. You can be so mean to us sometimes, and I don't know why I just don't throw you out.
Not a day goes by when you just can't hold yourself together. But you know what; you have no idea how lucky you are that you have us for parents, because most parents would of 'gave you back'. Can't you give us any respect any all. I'm tired of the broken glass, the broken dressers, the hole in the walls, and the door off its hinges. We look like we live in a barn from all of the destruction.
I'm tired of the yelling, hitting, kicking, screaming, swearing, and the never endless "it's your fault, your so stupid" crap.
I'm sick of being blamed for every freaking thing that you have lost or misplaced and I have to pay the 'consequence' with your anger because if I don't help you find it right away, you go off. I wish you can take some responsibility for something.
I'm tired of all this 'attachment crap', your too freaking old for me to help you get dressed and continue to get your needs met on demand. You have turned into a spoiled brat. They can kiss all this 'attachment crap' because you turned into some spoiled kids.
My God, if you only knew what stress you cause us. The endless therapy appts, the psych appts, the school meetings, the social workers, the support groups. It never seems to end. And why do we do all this? Because we thought it could help us be better parents, and you get over your trauma and realize how much we love you.
But nothing is working!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How much is this trauma anyway? I'm sick of people telling us that they feel safe here and that is why they act like this. Who cares why, Just make it stop!!!!!!!!!!!!.
I'm sick that you have more control over this house then I do. I have tried so many different things on parenting, but you just won't let up will you? Can't you just give me an inch? I wish I was stronger, but you wear me down so much and you are winning. I don't think super nanny would even come to our house.
I can't even leave the house with you guys anymore, because it's not worth it, you most definitely will fight which will lead to a tantrum. No one is safe.
I'm sick of other adoptive parents who adopted their little angels when they were just little babies and love to brag about how 'great they are'. I just want to hit you in your face. I'm so jealous of you.
So there you go, I do love you, but I have to admit that there are times that I don't like you very much, and there are times where I just want to give you back. I use to be so sick of how others viewed you, and us. But you know what, I am getting pretty sick of your crap. It's not everyone else, it's you!!!!!!!!!
